what do i have to do to get my self close to you
what do i have to do to communicate with you
what do i have to do to let you know that I’m thinking about you..
to let you know that you have been running around in my mind…
since that day..
the day that strange feeling came suddenly..
but all of those things…i just want to make sure how’s my feeling actually..
cause baby, I’m not sure if this is love…
gue seperti prajurit yang kalah sebelum berperang…. menyerah duluan sebelum berjuang.
tapi….
i’m not quite sure if this is love…
hmmm..
ngantuk niy…
hmm..UAS udah tiba.. dan ga’ lama lagi akan selesai.
fiuh..4 YEARS!!! if only I can turn back time, there’s so many things I want to fix. but, I know it won’t happen, never. I must not regret for the things i’ve been through.
and now, here I am. getting closer to move out from places which have gave me so many things for 4 years lately…
hmmm…long weekend niy. tapii…bentar lagi UTS. benkyosurukyana!! gimana ya caranya supaya stay focus on what i’m doing?
merintih pedih dalam kesakitan jiwa
menghapus air mata dalam hati
menahan sesak di dada
menepis rasa sakit yang tidak ingin kuakui
kucoba menerka apa maksud dari semua ini
tapi tak pernah kudapat jawabnya
karena aku tak pernah bertanya
selalu hanya diam dalam luka dan emosi
ya.
itu yang kurasa..
ketika malam tiba dan rasa kantuk tak kunjung menghampiri, aku mulai tenggelam dalam pikiran dan lamunanku. mencoba menerawang memori masa lalu..
kesombongan, keegoisan dan keAkuan ini sedikit demi sedikit menggerogoti jiwa yang lemah dan haus akan belaian. Kenapa rasa itu yang selalu memenangkan pertarungan batin melawan rasa sakit?Lalu merintih pedih dalam lubuk hati kesunyian.
sesungguhnya jiwa ini rapuh, sayang..
tapi takkan pernah kutunjukkan
karena aku adalah Aku..
Nilai akhirnya dah keluar juga.akhirnya…akhirnya. Lega bercampur dengan sedikit kecewa sama diri sendiri. Ternyata dengan sistem belajar kemaren hasilnya segitu. hehe..emang manusia ga pernah ada puasnya. Berarti jadi mahasiswa kupu-kupu alias kuliah pulang kuliah pulang kemarin kurang efektif.hmm terbukti kalo emang dasarnya tukang hedon tetep aja tukaNG hedon. Semester besok Study HARD Play hard ah.. Segala sesuatu yang seimbang kan pasti selalu menghasilkan sesuatu yang baik.. hehe..’tul ngga?
Shiver - Coldplay
So I look in your direction,
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don’t listen to me,
‘Cause you say you see straight through me,
Don’t you?
But on and on,
From the moment I wake,
To the moment I sleep,
I’ll be there by your side,
Just you try and stop me,
I’ll be waiting in line,
Just to see if you can
Oh, did you want me to change?
Well I’ll change for good,
And I want you to know, that you’ll always get your way
I wanted to say…
Don’t you shiver
Don’t you shiver
I’ll sing it loud and clear
And I’ll always be waiting for you
So you know how much I need you,
But you never even see me do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you?
But on and on,
From the moment I wake,
To the moment I sleep,
I’ll be there by your side,
Just you try and stop me,
I’ll be waiting in line,
Just to see if you can, if you can.
Oh, did you want me to change?
Well I’ll change for good,
And I want you to know that you’ll always get your way,
I wanted to say…
Don’t you shiver
Don’t you shiver,
I’ll sing it loud and clear
I’ll always be waiting for you.
Yeah, I’ll always be waiting for you
Yeah, I’ll always be waiting for you
Yeah, I’ll always be waiting for you
For you, I will always be waiting…
And it’s you I see,
But you don’t see me.
And its you, I hear,
So loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I’ll always be waiting for you.
So I look in your direction,
But you pay me no attention,
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me
There’s somethin missing in my life, but i’m too affraid to take it back..though i can..probably..Call me a coward for being affraid to speak up in my mind. that’s okay..cause it is true..walking away from problems to find a safety place..leaving the things that make me hurts…don’t want to face it because there’s to much fear..Tears keep fallin down..in my heart. wanna know the answer that never be asked..
Nothing hurts like love..nothing hurts like love..
